why?

Hi,
My name is Holly. I am not much of a writer so most of my posts will be short and sweet and yes I will be posting pictures.
As you can see by this Blogs name, I will be posting updates along my path to clear skin.

Isotrentenoin is the reformulated generic name for what was once Accutane.
Accutane- yeah that scary, serious drug, that was used to clear acne but also caused some serious side effects.
WHY?? would I chose to be put on this drug.
Well....
I am now 26 years old, I have NOT had one day in the last 10 years with clear skin.
and its not just annoying to look at every day/ a pain in the butt to cover it up. it is also the painful, deep, red, acne.. the under-the-skin kind.
I have been to dermatologist(s) regularly over these last 10 years and have been on "FDA Approved" for acne birth control ( yeah.. that made my face break out in even more painful acne than before) but I gave it a good chance I figured after 6-7 years without seeing a difference.. just a waste of money...
I have also been on about 4-5 different antibiotics.. for months and months at a time.. ( no luck just another waste of money)
I have also been prescribed more topicals than most can imagine.. and every 3-6 months I would be back at the dermatologist getting it switched because it wasnt working.
I have put up the money and gave the PROACTIVE thing a try.. woohoo thought i had a winner there.. things were starting to clear up a bit.. at least not as red and swollen.. WRONG month 3 rolled around and my skin revolted.
same with Neutrogena Skin ID..... yes tried it to..
lets not forget the excess amount of money on Vitamins/ Supplements; Spa Facials; dermabrasion; and all the various skin care lines that gave a little glimmer of hope to one day have clear skin..
I kept hearing " o you'll grow out of it.." I'm 26! news flash I am way over puberty.. been there done that; years and years ago.
My former dermatoligist would just ask to see me every 3 months and prescribe something new.. or maybe try something ive already tried again.. and proceed to tell me.. some people just dont outgrow acne and it can be a permanent thing.. not what I want to hear, so i decided to try a new dermatologist. couldnt hurt right? I tried just about anything and everything out there.. o yea forgot to mention my "TRIA BLUE LIGHT" (couple hundred dollar)purchase.. hugggeee mistake.
The new dermatologist looked at my file and came right in talked a little with my looked at my face and asked if any one ever suggested Isotrentenoin.. I didnt even know what that was.. and he said it used to be called Accutane.
big red light started flashing.. I've heard stories and read and have seen the tv commercials for the lawsuits on this drug.. I politely said i would look into it and see what i think. and walked out of the office ( with another antibiotic and a topical.. woooo $$$ more money to acne treatment)
The longer I waited the worse my skin got and the more frustrated I was becoming.
I reached out to my family care doctor( the one who has been my doctor since age 3) he knows me and any adverse reactions i may have to any drug. after a discussion about the drug and an office visit. he agreed my skin has gotten worse as I have gotten older and backed up the decision and told me I shouldnt see any severe side effects based on my current health.
He told me right now that is the best option for curing my acne.. CURE! 2 doctors had given me what i wanted to hear.. it can CURE my acne (like 90% chance I will never have an issue again) after I complete the 5 month treatment.
 My next trip to the Dermatologist I started the process of getting registered to be on Isotrentenoin...
its a lengthy one.. I needed to review and sign paperwork. be put back on birthcontrol ( women of child bearing age need to be on birth control or the FDA will not let you be on the drug) ; i needed to be on the birth control for a minimum of 30 days and produce 2 negative pregnancy tests ( one blood test- which has to be completed once every month i am being treated and one month after i am done taking the isotrentenoin) as you can see its pretty serious stuff. but its all to make sure my body is handling it well enough to continue to my cure.
so now I am clear and i have my prescription ready to be filled to start MONTH 1: cure for my acne- TOMORROW!
a little nervous about the seriousness of the drug.. but pumped it has such a success rate.. and both doctors called it a cure for acne..
keeping my fingers crossed im not that 10% that nothing seems to work on.. wishing hoping and praying that my first clear skin day in over 10 years is a short 5 months away.